Today is a gorgeous day.  The sun is shining, the air is crisp and the colours of the trees are fantastic.  God is good.  I prayed this morning.  The first time in a long long time.  It was hard to pray. I am not sure why that is so.  I feel as though it is difficult to take the time to speak to God.  Maybe it's because I don't like to ask for something and not have it happen.

I have spend a life time asking for love, to be noticed, accepted or at least acknowledge that I exist to no avail.  I am having difficulties letting go of my parents.  They have never been there for me and are not there for me now.  I am at my bottom in terms of my illness.  No one is showing up.

All I have is God, and apparently  that is all that I need.

Thank you God for your glory!